18 years done

 yet another year gone...thank you God for the second life!!

18 years gone since 28 April 2007

Everyday i count my blessings and I am eternally grateful for the second opportunity

Downfall

 The curve of life

eventuality! no one escapes it, everything around you loses novelty and you are doing the same thing over and over again.

How to escape the monotony?

Keep busy!! with what though?

Everyone goes through this phase it seems, 40s, doing ok financially, family is settled, but not happy.

Everyone wants to retire, be financially independent, but they are short on ideas of what to do next.

I am hoping, I find something to do soon...mind is restless though everything around me is green

should start reading about other peoples experiences on how hey trudge through their 40s..

The start of downfall!

Death

 Death

Very strong feelings emerge when death is experienced from close quarters. Its been a while, however I am extremely disturbed and shocked today.

Just yesterday I came to know about the death of an ex colleague of mine.

He was roughly the same age as me. Stays two blocks away and we used to run into each other often. His kids go to the same school as my kids. Apparently, he celebrated the birthday of his elder son and went to sleep, never to wake up again. It was silent exit due to a heart attack. May his soul rest in peace.

When I heard about his death (it was at Angad's school event), I was perplexed, terrified, disturbed and sad at the same time. What made things worse was that his kids were right in front of me and they seemed unaffected by it. They are too young to comprehend the repercussions of this event in their lives. My heart goes out to them and I pray for the entire family.

How does this affect me? Old thoughts resurface, weird feeling in my head. What is most important in life? Is it the fancy house we stay in, or the fast car that I drive, or that upcoming promotion that I am bothered about? Nope, none of these...

Stay healthy, spend time with your loved ones, live each day as if it is your last...kal ho na ho...

jannat

Hey suno na

Dil keh raha hai

Lalach badi kubsoorat bala hai

Aaye aye dekho na

Kiski duwa hai

Aasman chule jo uska khuda hai

Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi

Aise hasin sazza de..

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Aye suno na

Duniya ko kya hai

Hum ne jo chaha

Hum ne woh kiya hai

Aye dehko na

Jadu yeh kya hai

Pathar ko chu ke mein ne sona kiya hai

Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi

Aise hasin sazza de

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Paisa jeene ki dua

Paisa marne ka sama

Paisa ka jadoo ajab

Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi

Aise hasin sazza de

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Jannat jahan jannat yahan

Aye suno na

Aankho mein kya hai

Dil ne jo chaha dil ko sab mil gaya hai

Aye...

The animal within

Time to time, the primal instincts kick in and the animal awakes.

Wild and furious, he feels trapped and wants to do everything that will screw up the balance...

Oh...the delicate threads that are balancing everything around us.....One by one he snaps them!!

Once the craving is gone, its submission time again and gingerly knots are tied to the broken strings and the balance is restored...its never the same again, but its still there.

Understand? No? Know the Hulk?

Bachpan-Amit Trivedi

Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Phunsi karochon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Phunsi karochon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala

Na yaadon ke chakkar the
Na sapnon ke machchar the
Hum hi the apne shehanshah
Khud apne afsar the
Ek tu tha thoda tedha
Ek main bhi thoda medha
Aur ek tha waqt kabootar
Jo khidki pe na thehra
Chor police waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala

Tujh jaisa ban-na chaha
Tujhe jeb mein rakhna chaha
Toone door se thenga dikhaya
Kabhi hath na mere aaya
Main roya main chillaya
Tu hath na mere aaya
Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Luchche lafangon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Gachchi pe sutton waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala

Maine sazish phir kar daali
Ungli pistol bana li
Kaani aankh se aim laga ke
Dham se goli chala di
Aur tu tapka, dhool se chipka
Rok li saansein, baj gayi taali
Woh khel be oh saale
Sab jhoot tha be oh saale
Baazi chhod ke jaane waale
Yeh beimani hai
Yeh beimani hai oh saale.

Maturity

My definition of maturity is when you understand that life is not only black and white, there is grey too...a lot of it!