Wednesday, May 22, 2024

Downfall

 The curve of life

eventuality! no one escapes it, everything around you loses novelty and you are doing the same thing over and over again.

How to escape the monotony?

Keep busy!! with what though?

Everyone goes through this phase it seems, 40s, doing ok financially, family is settled, but not happy.

Everyone wants to retire, be financially independent, but they are short on ideas of what to do next.

I am hoping, I find something to do soon...mind is restless though everything around me is green

should start reading about other peoples experiences on how hey trudge through their 40s..

The start of downfall!


Monday, February 12, 2024

Death

 Death


Very strong feelings emerge when death is experienced from close quarters. Its been a while, however I am extremely disturbed and shocked today.

Just yesterday I came to know about the death of an ex colleague of mine.

He was roughly the same age as me. Stays two blocks away and we used to run into each other often. His kids go to the same school as my kids. Apparently, he celebrated the birthday of his elder son and went to sleep, never to wake up again. It was silent exit due to a heart attack. May his soul rest in peace.

When I heard about his death (it was at Angad's school event), I was perplexed, terrified, disturbed and sad at the same time. What made things worse was that his kids were right in front of me and they seemed unaffected by it. They are too young to comprehend the repercussions of this event in their lives. My heart goes out to them and I pray for the entire family.

How does this affect me? Old thoughts resurface, weird feeling in my head. What is most important in life? Is it the fancy house we stay in, or the fast car that I drive, or that upcoming promotion that I am bothered about? Nope, none of these...

Stay healthy, spend time with your loved ones, live each day as if it is your last...kal ho na ho...

Tuesday, August 17, 2021

jannat

Hey suno na
Dil keh raha hai
Lalach badi kubsoorat bala hai
Aaye aye dekho na
Kiski duwa hai
Aasman chule jo uska khuda hai


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de..
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Aye suno na
Duniya ko kya hai
Hum ne jo chaha
Hum ne woh kiya hai
Aye dehko na
Jadu yeh kya hai
Pathar ko chu ke mein ne sona kiya hai


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Paisa jeene ki dua
Paisa marne ka sama
Paisa ka jadoo ajab


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Aye suno na
Aankho mein kya hai
Dil ne jo chaha dil ko sab mil gaya hai
Aye...

Sunday, December 8, 2019

The animal within

Time to time, the primal instincts kick in and the animal awakes.

Wild and furious, he feels trapped and wants to do everything that will screw up the balance...

Oh...the delicate threads that are balancing everything around us.....One by one he snaps them!!

Once the craving is gone, its submission time again and gingerly knots are tied to the broken strings and the balance is restored...its never the same again, but its still there.

Understand? No? Know the Hulk?

Tuesday, November 26, 2019

Bachpan-Amit Trivedi

Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Phunsi karochon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Phunsi karochon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Na yaadon ke chakkar the
Na sapnon ke machchar the
Hum hi the apne shehanshah
Khud apne afsar the
Ek tu tha thoda tedha
Ek main bhi thoda medha
Aur ek tha waqt kabootar
Jo khidki pe na thehra
Chor police waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Tujh jaisa ban-na chaha
Tujhe jeb mein rakhna chaha
Toone door se thenga dikhaya
Kabhi hath na mere aaya
Main roya main chillaya
Tu hath na mere aaya
Doodh ki moochhon waala
Moot ke penchon waala
Luchche lafangon waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Gachchi pe sutton waala
Bachpan bhi tha saala
Maine sazish phir kar daali
Ungli pistol bana li
Kaani aankh se aim laga ke
Dham se goli chala di
Aur tu tapka, dhool se chipka
Rok li saansein, baj gayi taali
Woh khel be oh saale
Sab jhoot tha be oh saale
Baazi chhod ke jaane waale
Yeh beimani hai
Yeh beimani hai oh saale.

Thursday, September 12, 2019

Maturity

My definition of maturity is when you understand that life is not only black and white, there is grey too...a lot of it!