Friday, November 21, 2025

Paper Dreams

 

“I do not want to go to school today Papa” said my five-year-old son. It was a chilly winter morning, and it was an effort to leave the comfort of the warm bed and get into the cold shower. I understood his feelings and asked him to go back to sleep if he didn’t feel up to it.

When the pattern repeated for the next few days, I got concerned. “Maybe there is more to this than just the cold weather” I thought. I decided to dig deeper into it by discussing this in our free time.

“What’s up Aarav. Why don’t you want to go to school?” I asked him when we were playing a board game.

“I don’t like school” came the curt reply.

“Aha, and why is that so?”

“Teacher is not happy with me”, there was sorrow in his eyes when he said this.

I was not going to give up so easily. ”Maybe you did something wrong and that is why the teacher punished you. What did you do?” I asked him.

“I didn’t finish my homework on time this entire week; I know that is wrong. But you know, I was working on my dream project all week, hence I didn’t do the homework.” he said innocently

“Which dream project? You said you will keep it as a secret, and share with me only when it is done, so I do not know anything about your project yet”

“You remember we have this poor boy works in the tea stall below. I had asked you why he works at such a young age. You had told me that he is forced to work and maybe couldn’t follow his dreams as he couldn’t go to school as he/his parents didn’t have money”

“Oh yes, I remember that one. How is that connected to your project?” I was very curious now.

“Well, I am making greeting cards, many many greeting cards. I will sell them and give him the money to follow his dreams” he said with a deadpan face.

I didn’t know how to respond to him, I just held him in my arms and hugged him tight.

Sunday, November 2, 2025

Making a difference

 

Few weeks back, he got a call from his cousin that their grandmother wasn’t feeling well. She was feeling anxious and sweating. They were on the way to the doctor’s.

He was in a different city, 3 hours away.

At that moment, he knew that if his grandmom survived the ordeal, he ll need to be be there and make a difference.

He made a difference for sure and felt proud of it.

However, in the larger scheme of the universe, it is a very small contribution, and he wasn’t sure if he should be taking credit for any of it.

Split between pride and humility, he gave up thinking about it. In a few weeks the feeling settled and his own anxiety was gone.

Monday, April 28, 2025

18 years done

 yet another year gone...thank you God for the second life!!

18 years gone since 28 April 2007

Everyday i count my blessings and I am eternally grateful for the second opportunity

Wednesday, May 22, 2024

Downfall

 The curve of life

eventuality! no one escapes it, everything around you loses novelty and you are doing the same thing over and over again.

How to escape the monotony?

Keep busy!! with what though?

Everyone goes through this phase it seems, 40s, doing ok financially, family is settled, but not happy.

Everyone wants to retire, be financially independent, but they are short on ideas of what to do next.

I am hoping, I find something to do soon...mind is restless though everything around me is green

should start reading about other peoples experiences on how hey trudge through their 40s..

The start of downfall!


Monday, February 12, 2024

Death

 Death


Very strong feelings emerge when death is experienced from close quarters. Its been a while, however I am extremely disturbed and shocked today.

Just yesterday I came to know about the death of an ex colleague of mine.

He was roughly the same age as me. Stays two blocks away and we used to run into each other often. His kids go to the same school as my kids. Apparently, he celebrated the birthday of his elder son and went to sleep, never to wake up again. It was silent exit due to a heart attack. May his soul rest in peace.

When I heard about his death (it was at Angad's school event), I was perplexed, terrified, disturbed and sad at the same time. What made things worse was that his kids were right in front of me and they seemed unaffected by it. They are too young to comprehend the repercussions of this event in their lives. My heart goes out to them and I pray for the entire family.

How does this affect me? Old thoughts resurface, weird feeling in my head. What is most important in life? Is it the fancy house we stay in, or the fast car that I drive, or that upcoming promotion that I am bothered about? Nope, none of these...

Stay healthy, spend time with your loved ones, live each day as if it is your last...kal ho na ho...

Tuesday, August 17, 2021

jannat

Hey suno na
Dil keh raha hai
Lalach badi kubsoorat bala hai
Aaye aye dekho na
Kiski duwa hai
Aasman chule jo uska khuda hai


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de..
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Aye suno na
Duniya ko kya hai
Hum ne jo chaha
Hum ne woh kiya hai
Aye dehko na
Jadu yeh kya hai
Pathar ko chu ke mein ne sona kiya hai


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Paisa jeene ki dua
Paisa marne ka sama
Paisa ka jadoo ajab


Roj naya khwaab dede zindagi
Aise hasin sazza de
Jannat jahan jannat yahan
Jannat jahan jannat yahan


Aye suno na
Aankho mein kya hai
Dil ne jo chaha dil ko sab mil gaya hai
Aye...

Sunday, December 8, 2019

The animal within

Time to time, the primal instincts kick in and the animal awakes.

Wild and furious, he feels trapped and wants to do everything that will screw up the balance...

Oh...the delicate threads that are balancing everything around us.....One by one he snaps them!!

Once the craving is gone, its submission time again and gingerly knots are tied to the broken strings and the balance is restored...its never the same again, but its still there.

Understand? No? Know the Hulk?