Purpose

 Bade hoke kya banoge beta?

Society ka shikaar maa!!

25 years of grind, entire youth gone, stuck with midlife crisis...is this what I wanted to become? They tricked me.

Had I known, would I have chosen the same path?

Chase money, my mind said when we didnt have enough. I was young, raw and I immersed myself into this goal. Day after day, month after month and year after year, I kept building...for my family, for myself. Lady luck was kind and I reached where we had enough sooner than expected.

Fulfilled every responsibility thrown my way, stood up after falling everytime, took every setback in my stride, but kept running...always running.

Now at 45, the mad chase is over. On the exterior, I am a successful person, have a great family, good name in the industry, fit as a fiddle. However on the inside, I lost myself somewhere along the way. I was always what the other person needed me to be...a son, a husband, a father, a boss, a friend. However, I have forgotten my identity, my singularity. Or did I never have one?

Idle time kills me, monotony bores me, daily chores frustrate me, i am alone in a crowd, i have stopped connecting to people, I have no hobbies, completely lost!

Well, would I want my kids to undergo the same grind? It is upto them, however I will try and impart the right lessons.

Purpose in life is the singular factor that beats everything else: money, fame, all riches on one side, purpose on the other.

Action plan:

0. Find the next purpose

1. Keep gymming

2. Keep listening to good music

3. Keep reading

4. Keep watching good shows.

5. Occasionally drinking (no binge drinking though)

6. Travel

7. Teach stuff to kids

8. Smile a lot

9. Love a lot

10. Dont judge